I write these words after a surprising discovery: I don't know how to deal with Loss ..
I keep thinking about the healthiest way to grieve, is it crying about it, distracting myself from it ? I found myself writing about it, I can't think of any other way ..
Some of the few people who may read this, might think that I'm a drama queen who cries over the loss of an insignificant pet. However, the loss of a pet is no less important than the loss of a human being, sometimes even harder ..
As you go out into the world, you meet people by obligation, you deal with them with logic and diplomacy .. But you live with a pet by choice, you do it with your heart, it becomes a part of your day .. Everything you do is spontaneous, uncalculated, even childish and no one can judge you.
You grieve a pet not only because you miss it, but also because it teaches unexpected lessons and fills your heart with unmeasured warmth ..
At the beginning, I fell in love with Kinder because he is unbelievably cute and fluffy, a chubby little guy with character .. I feed him every day as any pet owner would do, but as days went by, I discover that he was feeding my inner power ..
When you come to love a pet, the selfish part of you weakens, without you noticing .. When your pet is sick or hungry, the warmth of your bed doesn't matter anymore .. You actually move your lazy arse to check on him and you do it happily and lovingly, you actually sacrifice your comfort for the well-being of another creature.
As he crawls under the sheets, he occupies the center of the bed and you don't mind sleeping stuck to the wall .. He unwillingly brings out motherly instincts as they are nocturnal animals, they voice their every need at night and you're happy to respond. You forget you're tired as soon as he jumps on your lap, purrs softly and rubs his wet nose against your cheek ..
Your clothes are full of cat hair, you clean twice as much, you shop for salami and fish around the clock, but you don't complain because you love them unconditionally, as I loved my Kinder and will always remember him . ♡
